Tuesday, June 14, 2011

I quit. I need help. I am sitting here a puddle of tears on my couch. There are some people you can't avoid for various reasons and they never stop hurting you.  And you just keep going back for more and more and more punishment.  I am a freaking masochist when it comes to this sort of thing.  I don't know why I even bother trying.  

Lord knows I know other people have their problems, but that does not mean that mine are so simple that "things will get better" and that "I am a fully functioning adult with a family of my own" so therefore I do not need a shoulder, or attention in any way shape or form.  

I know I don't matter much in the grand scheme of things, but this is going to be the end of my undoing.

3 comments:

  1. For the first time in a loooooooooong time I'm going to say this: YOU'RE WRONG. You matter a great, great, deal to a lot of people. You make a huge difference in the lives of so many people. Starting with Jason and Channah. Adding in your family, and Jason's. And your extended families. And the people who you and they have chosen as friends (since we don't get to choose our families but do get to choose our friends). If you keep insisting you don't matter I'm going to have to keep arguing with you. I don't like to fight...stop putting yourself down!

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  2. I'm the anonymous above...for some reason it didn't let me use my Google account to post...

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  3. I'm stupid...I've twice posted anonymous because it's not letting my use my Google account...but I still haven't identified myself! --MARION

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