Today should have been the baby naming,   It should have been one of the happiest days of my life.  Instead I am sitting here a total mess.  My medication isn't working.  I can't stop crying.  I can't get rid of these stupid lice.  I am just all around miserable and can't make the aching stop.  I don't know what to do anymore.  I can't move forward no matter how hard I seem to try, and obviously backwards is not an option.  God help me I am just stuck in a black hole that is sucking the life of me